Todd called from down the hall and half-jogged towards her.
Amanda was closing
her door to her apartment. After being on her blog all morning, she thought it
would be a good time to go get the mail.
Amanda turned and
waited for him.
post," He said. He didn't sound happy.
insane? You just told the world that you were going back!"
Amanda still didn't
see what the problem is. "I didn't say when, just that I needed to. Go
re-read my post."
"You think that
you, of all people, would know that every day for the next year, there will
probably be a crowd waiting for you to show up?"
"People are not
that stupid," Amanda said.
Todd crossed his
arms, leaned up against the wall and just looked at her.
"I'm supposed to put up a 'Thank you to my Supporters' post. At the same
time, I will make it clear that I really don't know when I will be going,
because…" Amanda trailed off and Todd seemed to have relaxed a little.
saying that I'm going is one thing. Thinking that I'm actually going to do it
again, is nerve-wracking. I'm actually deathly afraid of going back."
Amanda admitted. She turned away and hung her head. Todd was the only one she
felt comfortable telling this to but she was just as uncomfortable.
Todd stood up and took her left hand, when she turned to face him and he took
his hand and placed it on each upper arm. "You will be okay. You will
figure it out and I'll be here to help you if you need it."
Amanda nodded and
looked up at him. "Thanks," she said. It wasn't that she didn't trust
him, but he really didn't know that she'll be okay or be able to figure it out.
Todd reached for his
phone and made a call, "Listen," he said, "I won't be able to
get there for another hour. No, no real emergency, just friend needs me right
now." Then he hung up.
coffee?" He asked.
At that moment,
Amanda realized that she was not over him. Not by a long shot.